Inspiration and Motivation


The last few years seem like time just slipped away into a warp.  Although I don’t regret all the information I absorbed from that period of time, all other things began to suffer in account of my search to understand some things about people.  Since I began my bulletin board of dreams again a few months ago, with a bit more tenacity, things have begun to slowly change.  I mean, I’m living in Hamburg Germany right now, about to travel to Switzerland and then see another friend in Sweden.  Things are on the up.

My motivation and inspiration is coming back.  I’m getting that itch again to start producing more creative stuff.  I’m getting ideas for my musical progressions and I’m getting that obsessive art itch again.  Ideas coming in, producing more complex drum patterned music and painting oil pieces and watercolor pieces more prolifically.  So I’m currently looking at ideas for that.  I like the idea skulls and roses as a piece I might want going down my arm with tribal and crystal blue hazes coming out of the eye sockets of the skulls, signifying a light source from within the skull with a backdrop of deep red hued roses.  Photorealistic of course.  Still deciding if I want a thick bold black outline on any of it.  Initial ideas are going to be in watercolor.

I recently did a tribal piece on the train from Bremen to Hamburg.  It just felt good.  Learning about psychopathy and money and computers and where evil comes from in the brain is all fine and dandy but I should be enjoying life a bit more and follow these things that give me a sense of accomplishment and fulfillment which is exactly why I started that bulletin board of dreams in the first place.  Programming, drawing, painting, music, traveling, growing friends and sense of community.

I highly recommend doing a bulletin board of dreams and fostering positive thinking.  When negative thinking gets in the way just shut it out.  Think several more positive things in it’s place until it makes no more impact.  It appears to be really important so it’s very important for me.  Unfortunately it’s hard to do and I don’t think that means you have to be artificially happy.  I think it’s a way of fostering a direction of thought that’s more productive in your everyday life.  I think that’s the real gold nugget out of it.


Top 10 Ambient Picks


Ambient music has been a large part of my youth growing up.  I wasn’t too much exposed to the music and all the influential bands during the mid 90’s but I knew of some big ones: Brian Eno, The Orb and FSOL.  Later on I was able to stumble across other big names that came out during the 90’s and I’m glad to say that I’ve been able to find some remote obscure gems as well.  So here’s my top 10 picks in ambient.

1. Sunlight Expansion – Aeron


2. Assassin (live 93 mix) – The Orb

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Live 93 – The Orb


3. Oxbow Lakes (Hidden Mix) – The Orb

This track is a hidden track off their U.F.OFF – Best of the Orb album.  At the very end at the end of the last song you hear this one.  It’s one of the best remixes of the track I’ve ever heard.  The original Oxbow Lakes from the album Orbus Terrarum would be in here if this didn’t exist.


4. Spineless Jelly – Future Sound of London


5. Silene – Biosphere


6. Pancake Lizard – Aphex Twin


7. Home World – Coyote Oldman


8. Track 04 – Teebs


9. Late October – Harold Budd & Brian Eno


10. Java – Ulf Lohmann